In my passion and commitment to cutting the ties that bind and living beyond mortal boundaries, I have been eliminating the 144 attachments of heart, mind, and spirit.✶
They are rapidly dissolving illusions in my Being and further deepening my experience of existential Onlyness, to such a degree that self worth, or any worth for that matter, has dissolved. Success and failure have dissolved as well. I am all things and yet none of it. This is acute. Nothing matters or is valued over anything else. And The Law of Compensation and the reality of no gains or losses seems to further deepen this existential Onlyness.
I was hoping that such dissolving of illusions and identities in general would foster more refined delight and patience, but I am feeling intense irritation with the games of those of lesser consciousness; and a deep grief in this intense Onlyness.
I must be missing something. Please, Beloved, how may I soar to greater heights and dance with The Great Beauty of The Self with more delight?
You are discovering a mystic's mystery I have been grappling with for years. Toltec mystics used to detach from the reality of man to such an extent that they seemed almost to detach from humanness altogether. Their compassionate understanding, patience, sense of humor, sex drive and joyousness, seemed to have disappeared along with the illusions of man.
The more detached these mystics became, the more human qualities were lost.
The following analogy to explain the relationship between emotion and perception (or love and light) has been used by me in the past:
I explained it has a flexible pyramid with the vertical axis being the perception and the horizontal base being the emotion. The higher the perception rises, the smaller the base. The wider the emotion expands horizontally, the lower the perception.
Humanity lacks perception, and therefore wallows in accentuated emotion. Masters have a great deal of perception (which grows more as we remove illusion) and therefore have little emotion. During a journey of mastery, it feels as though we lose emotion-based feelings (like love, joy, or sexuality or humor).
However, consider the following:
- We are reinventing the way perception and emotion relate by creating a new, higher way of being human that is sustainable and growth promoting: we are introducing the integration of these two opposites.† More perception inspires more emotion and vice versa.
- The nature of emotion has to change, because emotion without perception is addictive and volatile. Emotion inspired by perception, is a free energy device that fuels consciousness.
- We only value the old, hollow emotions of the past because of social conditioning and because we are the trailblazers and have had no role models to teach us otherwise.
- Integrating the most basic opposites of light and love, we are addressing the conflicting nature of opposites themselves; the cause of war and hardship; we are healing polarity and hardship as the impetus for evolution.
Let's examine what takes the place of that which we feel we may have lost.
To be continued...