Have you accomplished what you sought by going into seclusion?
What we accomplished during our journey together, was to master death — a major accomplishment, considering that it required our breaking free from the belief systems of a society obsessed with death and dying. It took us years of disciplined living to achieve such mastery.
What we are now facing as a challenge, is to learn to master life. The secrets of how to do this, lay strewn along the path we've been traveling on. It's now time to practice what we've learnt. We've de-mystified death by knowing it to be the grinding down of the fields around the body (we called it the luminous cocoon) by the bombardment of awareness particles.
We do not yet understand what life is. We have been studying its purpose, but we have not yet looked into the heart of that which animates all things. It may be an ongoing revelation we seek.
The answer to your question therefore is: no, I have not yet found it — I am as yet following the golden thread of knowledge into the mysterious labyrinth of life.