Originally published on Messages for Lightworkers (2018)
In my experience of those who struggle the most to restore self-love, I find those that have experienced sexual assault or extreme violence as youngsters appear to struggle the most. Is there a particular reason why this appears to be so? Is it just the level of shock and fracturing that creates the greatest challenge to restoring total love of self?
When I received the Belvaspata for sexual abuse survivors✶, it became clear just how completely devastating sexual abuse is to an individual. It certainly creates self-loathing, but it also is such an assault on the psyche, that the fields around the body become frayed. The central meridian displaces downwards and the shock and trauma bumps the assemblage point downwards – the position of depression and addiction. In many cases the individual has difficulty being fully present in their body, which creates disassociativeness and attention deficit.
It is best to do multiple sessions of the sexual abuse Belvaspata. And to repeat the following aphorisms daily for 3-4 months:
- "I am pure and holy"
- "I like myself just the way I am"
- "I am an innocent and holy being as vast as the cosmos"
- "I release the dreams of the past
- "I change the past through every moment fully and impeccably lived"
- "My life-force flows freely and vibrantly through my body"
- "My life is a joyous adventure"
✶AKA The Belvaspata for Early Developmental Trauma in The Bridge of No Time and Healing Sexual Abuse Through the 20 Meridians of the Body