Anonymous:
I have quite a bit of hostility from my immediate family, yet I still have small children and cannot leave. Why would I choose to manifest such a situation?
The Seer:
If, after deep self-examination, you have determined that you are not staying for the wrong reasons, but because you're honoring your commitment as a mother to raise your children to the best of your ability, then I suggest considering the deeper spiritual meaning of your situation.
The wrong reasons to stay in an unsupportive relationship:
- Because you find satisfaction in being needed as a replacement for being loved.
- Because you are confused and trying to understand attributes found in your family members that you cannot comprehend, because you've never experienced them.
- Because you try and use the folly of others as growth experiences. (Toltec Seers have always deliberately kept a petty tyrant in their environment for the testing they provide the Seer.)
There are some beneficial growth opportunities to be had from the last two reasons mentioned above. But if either your Inner Child, Inner Nurturer, or Inner Sage is being damaged by the family treatment of you, you must speak up on their behalf and demand more respect. Otherwise the benefits gained from the growth opportunities this situation may give, are not a compelling enough reason to stay.
Now let's look at the deeper spiritual reason as to why you have manifested such a hostile family environment.
The Deeper Spiritual Reason
Because your external environment is withholding and unsupportive, you tend to live in the deep peace of your inner space. Through deep, meaningful living in your inner space, you are on a grand adventure of ever-increasing insight. Your inner world is becoming rich and more and more profound. We have discussed in my webinars, that the cosmos is a mirror image of the Infinite's Being. This relationship between the Infinite and Creation has undergone a drastic change. Creation is now mirroring the Infinite's inner space rather than outer expression — which had previously been the case for eons past.
At a microscopic level, for an individual, the building of a rich inner infrastructure is the way to embrace life — the second challenge that when achieved, enables the second resurrection to take place; the second part of becoming a fully resurrected being.
Can you now clearly see how you deliberately chose this difficult situation to push you into the second resurrection? What a gift! Eventually living in your inner space becomes second nature. Even though you may be fully present for a child, the peace of your inner environment will stay with you. Expectations of others, or resentment at how withholding they are, will melt away.
My dearest,
I have been been living with this for more than two decades. In fact, I have been in a relationship that doesn't work. At that moment, I had two small kids. I was saying: 'well, I am just staying to support them.'. For that long, around 22 years, I have been like a bird in a cage.
The elder got graduated from college yesterday and the second is in the second year. Did I intent to escape? Yes? Did I want leave the relationship? Yes, for sure, it is not working.
But I am still stuck?
Overall, I am feeling discomfort around ordinary people. I am not seeing me in any relationship for anyone who is not in the same path, the same wavelength that I.
If you wish, you can have my email from the board and start sharing experiences about this situation. Maybe we can guide each other.
Almine….
I am so very deeply grateful for this post
Much Love and Gratitude Always ❤
Very interesting. Thank you for sharing.
I am very familiar with hostilities from one or members of my family. I too dwell in inner peace. Seems to be a trend for what we have chosen as our place on this planet.